I think I just suck at poker. I'm not one that is capable of grinding out a bankroll from nothing. I'm not even sure I can keep one once I have one. Not everyone in the world can be good at poker, there has to be some bad players, it's the way things work.

Clearly this comes following a bad swing. I did build up a couple of hundred on Stars and blonde playing PLO20/PLO25 but have since lost it leaving me nearly busto yet again. Sure there are bad beats in there and 'variance' but I expect a better player wouldn't have lost so much.

I don't really care now to be honest, I'm accepting my role in poker - a recreational player that sometimes has a nice score.

After the PLO, I played a couple of tourneys again and I have to say, I do prefer them. In my last few, I was 72 (just itm) of 464 in a PLO comp, 179 of 5219, 13th of 180 and 4th of 180 in my two 180 man sit and go's last night and came 30something in the iPoker $30k for $140ish the other night. I think there's only been 4 comps I haven't cashed in in the last couple of days and whilst it's nothing major, money in is better than money out.

I think the problem is that I get bored with the bad runs in tourneys, and I get bored playing the low stakes buy in ones where winning either means you're still in the same buy in or you have to get through 5000 people. The staking thing was great for playing better comps, but there's just not enough of them at realistic times for me on iPoker, but at the same time, I think I prefer playing on my own dime too. Given that if you quit, you pay back any make up, I wonder how deep stakers allow you go before calling it a day. I'd have hated to be in for £1000+ and wanting to quit, the £600 sucked enough, just curious how deep one can go.

In the mean time, back to playing tourneys, probably switching to stt's when I get bored (I love 9 tabling on Stars and I'm prob break even or there abouts)

and in the words of Nina Simone...

And I'm feeling gooooooood.